"When Jesus says in John 16, ‘have confidence in me, be brave, cheer up,’ he is calling us to unconditional abandonment to God’s mercy over the sins of our past, and to unwavering confidence that they have not only been forgiven, but entirely forgotten.
‘for it is we who are the circumcission, we who worship by the Spirit of God, who glory in Christ Jesus, and who put no confidence in the flesh.’ Philippians 3:3"
I feel that the Lord has been inspiring me to live and not be ashamed of what He has given me. You see, I have a great life, and in the past I was almost embarrassed by it for some reason. I don’t know why, but to say that I am madly in love with my wife, or that I have a great job, or that my baby sleeps through the night, would make me uncomfortable. I fealt that I was bragging and it just didn’t sit right with me. But, God is teaching me that I need to stop being so passive about my blessings and it is okay to boast in the Lord. God has given me so many things: a great marriage, great kids, a beautiful house to live in, a great job to go to, good friends, and a heart that is moved by the things of God. It seems like so many people are negative all the time, that it almost wasn’t cool to be happy. Just monitor a couple conversations that you have at work or on the phone. They will be focused around negative subjects.
Here’s an example of how weird I am. Jacinda always makes fun of me when people ask me what I do. "I’m a financial advisor…" but I say it funny. She asked me why the other day. I responded that it feels weird to call myself that, because that’s not what we call each other in the office. In the office, we are "brokers". But, for some reason, to say that I am a "stock broker" to someone sounds weird to me too. I am just trying to explain to people what I do, but I’m scared of sounding like I’m at a high school reunion saying that, "guess what…I’m better than you". I’m obviously dealing with something here. I love my job and it’s an important one. I’m proud of what I do and proud of how well my clients do. There I said it! Something in my heart wants to unleash when people ask me about work, because I just enjoy talking about it, but something holds me back because of the previous reason and the fact that I don’t want to bore people to death. All this to say, I wasn’t letting God be the focus of my confidence. A lot of the time, but not all the time. In conclusion, we need to be proud of our Godly heritage and to stop looking at the floor and start looking out to what God can accomplish through us.
Jacinda and I watched "akeelah and the bee" last week. there was this great quote that the little girl read by Marianne Williamson. Here it is:
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same."